Tuesday, September 9, 2008



i tried in every ways, i did everything that was possible to be done. alright, not everything. i did what was humanly possible to me without humiliating myself too much. i did what more than four years of friendship made me do. i swallowed the pride, erased my tendency to be bipolary capricious, kept my technical/professional/intellectual abilities in the shade. i accepted last-minute change of plans, non-inclusions in social-like events in which we could take the risk of being seen in public, kept secrets that were never asked to be kept. i blurred personality, traced an omnipresent smile in every communication, coloured with the sweetness i could all the answers, even the ones whose questions made them potentially sour.
even so, i didn't get it. it was like buying a puzzle that, although it had come sealed from the factory, seemed that had been opened in the middle of the way and someone had switched the pieces in a way they would never fit. i kept my mind open and i still managed to fit some pieces after taking a deep breath, but i thought about putting it aside many times. probably too many. but then there was one more piece that would fit, and another, and another, and i would almost forget how difficult it had been.
but this time it turned to be impossible. i believe i even ruined a part of it trying to figure out if the mistake wasn't mine. as soon as i was sure of that, i put it away in the drawer, sadly assured that i will never take it again.

i gave up. but i still have nightmares about it.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Guilty Pleasure part II


In These Arms (Keep The Faith, 1992)




Keep The Faith (Keep The Faith, 1992)




I'll Sleep When I'm Dead (Keep The Faith, 1992)






Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Guilty Pleasure part I



Runaway (
Bon Jovi, 1984)





Never Say Goodbye (Slippery When Wet, 1986)




Wanted Dead Or Alive (Slippery When Wet, 1986)





Bad Medicine (New Jersey, 1988)





Monday, September 1, 2008

Here She Comes Now


The Velvet Underground



Nirvana